Raising support can make days quite overwhelming. And these days soon become weeks, which can multiply, and eventually you have the past three weeks of our lives. The whole concept of our lives and plans depending entirely on God providing through the community around us and not through our day-to-day work: it’s a new perspective.
But then there are days like today, when I’m reminded of what God has already pulled together. I’m reminded that he has already orchestrated a job for us with Partners where we will be living on the border, exactly where my heart rests (in an odd way, experiencing great pain and deep peace simultaneously), and Stephen will be blessed with a role he has been aching to serve in. Although it’s not completely evident to everyone else, for us, it is an indescribable work of art. It is God’s creativity.
And if He can orchestrate all the people involved and all their time frames, why do we question the resources and finances to get us there? It seems there is a disconnect for us when it comes to money, specifically. We seem to have no problem believing that God can orchestrate the people in our lives, but its much harder to trust the financial provision. (Who is we? Maybe Stephen and I, maybe more, not sure.) If God has called us to this position and has created a place for us on the Thai-Burma border, surely we can sit in uncertainty for a short time, push through the awkward social situations of asking, and trust Him as He carries us through.
Our pastor, Paul, put it so well:
“I know that this seems like a huge mountain, but God is in the business of throwing mountains in to the sea.”
It’s not declaring the challenges small, but admitting the difficulty and declaring God big enough.